Letting go before the end

Today I decided not to finish a book, which is a rarity for me but does happen. I had been waiting weeks on the library waitlist for Never Let Me Go, by Kazuo Ishiguro. I never picked this one up back when it came out in 2005, probably because that was the year I started library school to get my masters degree, and fiction was temporarily under my radar except for whatever I was reading for school. But the book kept popping up on the several Facebook reader pages to which I belong, and I finally decided I needed to circle back.
Yesterday I received my email notice from Kindle Unlimited that there were new titles awaiting my selection as part of my subscription. I browsed them and found several books that I was surprised and delighted to get “for free,” and this morning I woke up having decided to quit pursuing Never Let Me Go so I could go read one, hopefully to be more entertained than I have been for the past couple of days spent on Ishiguro’s supposed masterpiece.
This has been a unique reading experience for me, in that the story was simultaneously slightly intriguing and the most boring chain of meandering day-to-day reminiscences I have ever read. It’s as if the author decided, “What if I wrote a book about completely ordinary people in somewhat extraordinary circumstances, but didn’t focus on their uniqueness or their peak experiences or their defining moments but rather just dwelt on every dreary mundane bit of their lives in minute detail for almost 300 pages?” What a slog.
I went into it knowing virtually nothing about the story (I did that on purpose, because I’d heard that’s what you needed to do), and when I realized what it was about, I felt cheated—because I have encountered it before, in a much more captivating form, in a young adult novel—The House of the Scorpion, by Nancy Farmer, which I actually read during library school for my readers’ advisory class. And which, by the way, came out in print three years before NLMG, so this book wasn’t even particularly unique. (Not implying anything here, but…not as creative as everyone who lauds it as a true original may think.)
Anyway…I was keeping on simply because so many people gave it such rave reviews, but…I’m bored, I’m dispirited, I’m slightly depressed, and I’m moving on. I had great respect for this author based on The Remains of the Day, but this one isn’t that, and it isn’t for me. Letting go now.
A mesmerizing tale

I just finished reading The Thirteenth Tale, by Diane Setterfield. It’s kind of a mystery to me—not the book itself, but my history with it. My Goodreads listings show that i read the book in 2015, and that I gave it a four-star rating. I reference having enjoyed it in reviews of two others of her books, and I just bought it for a friend’s birthday based on that information; but when I started reading it, I had absolutely no memory of the story! That IS the year that I read 152 books (I was a librarian who ran three teen book clubs with a different book to read for each, which accounted for 72 of those—one to discuss, another to propose for next month), so there have been some books that faded from memory based on the rapidity with which I went through them. But this wasn’t like that; it wasn’t even vaguely familiar.
I didn’t remember anything beyond what one could get from reviewing the synopsis: A famously reclusive author decides out of the blue to tell her life story to a minor biographer who has no idea why she was singled out for this task. Over many encounters with the press during her career, prolific and popular author Vida Winter created various life histories for herself, but all had proven to be false—or as she phrased it, “a story.” Now, though, at the end of her life, she has decided to come clean, and has summoned a biographer with some parallels in her own life story to tell Vida’s truth.
When I first started reading I sort of recognized the opening scenario, which was of the biographer’s daily existence working in a used/rare bookstore beside her father. But I have read several books that started out approximately that way and, as the story went along, I struggled to find anything else familiar about it. So, I simply gave in and read it as if it were brand new.
I’m glad that I gifted it to my friend, because that prompted me to read it myself, and not only did I become totally immersed in it, but also believe my friend will like it. (She’s listening on audio, so it may take her longer to finish.) The characters are interestingly bizarre, the storytelling is well paced and carries you along with it, there are various surprising reveals that give the story a twist here and there, and the book is resolved nicely, with enough secrets revealed to be satisfying but without that “tied-up-with-a-bow” feeling that I dislike.
The person who synopsized it for Goodreads concludes the description with these words:
“The Thirteenth Tale is a love letter to reading, a book for the feral reader in all of us, a return to that rich vein of storytelling that our parents loved and that we loved as children.”
This was an astute observation that I can only echo. Several classics figure in the story, including multiple mentions of Jane Eyre, by Charlotte Brontë, which bears some relation to a particular aspect of the story. I read that book maybe 15 times between the ages of 12 and 17, and the way this book is written—with a slightly gothic flare and an acute understanding of human nature—makes me feel the way I did when revisiting Jane. It also features twins, about whom I was obsessed when I was a child (I was an “only,” who fantasized a missing twin who should have been my companion), so that made it even more fascinating.
The book is rich in language and imagery, and Setterfield really knows how to tease out a story. I read her book Bellman & Black a few years ago (based on my “memory” of having enjoyed this book, ironically enough) and disliked it; but this one redeemed my faith in her, as did Once Upon A River. I’m glad to now be able to definitively say that I have read and will remember The Thirteenth Tale!
The Orchard
I have been quite baffled by the last few books I have read by Peter Heller. His earlier books had a plot, an arc, and a conclusion, if not the perfect resolution, and then I ran up against two or three that just seemed to…stop. They felt unfinished—they seemed confusing as to his intentions in writing them, and I was disappointed, because he is so gifted in his ability to capture the beauty of the natural world through his characters’ eyes that I will read nearly anything he writes, but…finally, in The Orchard, there is a cohesive story with a beginning, a middle, and an ending, even if they are slight and still take second place to his descriptive passages.

The book is a coming-of-age story told from the viewpoint of Frith, now in her 30s but looking back on her life from about age 12 onward. Her mother, Hayley, a renowned translator of the work of poets from the Tang Dynasty, walks away from her heroin-addicted husband and her career at a Denver university to set up house in a rustic cabin in the quiet hills of the Green Mountains of Vermont to raise her child. She and Frith move there when Frith is seven, and live a life that is both idyllic and hand-to-mouth, making a perilous living from selling the apples from their orchard and the syrup made from the maple trees they tap each year while thoroughly immersing themselves in the pleasure of vanishing into the pines.
The book is a combination of in-the-moment narrative with reminiscence, and is punctuated by some of the simple but transcendentally beautiful poems of Li Xue, translated by Hayley, as well as some poems that may have been Hayley’s own.
Hayley and Frith’s story starts out slowly, but builds to a deeply emotional climax. It’s all about the love of family, the joy of friendship, the experience of doing work that is fulfilling, and the quiet and perceptive appreciation of the natural world. This is not a book like some of Heller’s that are action-packed adventures with a bucolic setting; rather, it is a heartfelt exploration of humanity.
There were many slightly disappointed reviews of this book on Goodreads as being too simple, too slow-paced, not based in reality. It’s hard, sometimes, when you have come to expect a certain thing from an author, to receive something else; but Heller is almost always surprising, and I felt this one accomplished what was intended in a way that was both relatable and evocative.
Burn(ed)
Once again I have to ask: Peter Heller, where are you going with this?

I picked up his book Burn from the library early in the week and once I started reading it I couldn’t put it down. I’m having some trouble right now with excessive edema in my legs, so sitting up for periods longer than the half hour I usually dedicate to eating a meal can be problematic in terms of extra swell and knee pain. I kept turning the pages on this one for another half hour or more in every instance, because I so wanted to know what came next. But I never found out…despite finishing the book.
Jess and Storey have been friends since childhood, growing up as close-by neighbors in rural Vermont. They still meet up every year (Jess having moved to Colorado) for a few weeks of hiking, camping, and hunting in various wilderness areas of the upper northern states; this year, they chose moose hunting in the middle of Maine. Jess is particularly glad of this year’s trip; his wife left him and he needs the distraction and the away time with his friend.
There has been a lot of rash talk on the news from secessionist groups in Maine and a few surrounding states about leaving the union, but the guys figure this is something that will work itself out in the courts. That’s until they emerge from their vacation off the grid to replenish their provisions and buy a tank of gas, only to discover that the town they chose to visit has been decimated. Unlike when a wildfire passes through, leaving some houses partially or wholly standing amongst the devastation, the force behind this act was concentrated and deliberate; although a few outhouses and sheds remain, every single house in the town is burnt down to its foundations. The implied savagery is bewildering and disturbing.
The strangest part of it is there are few bodies—they have discovered just four out of a population of more than 2700—and no live people left in the town, but for some reason all the boats docked by the nearby lake are pristine and untouched. There is no cell phone reception, no radio reception, nothing to tell them what happened here, but it’s plain that the talk of secession has escalated into a real and frightening battle. They have no idea who is “winning”—secessionists or U.S. military (or could Canada be involved?)—or how far the devastation stretches, so they decide to figure out a route to get back home (Storey has a wife and two daughters in Vermont), scavenging food from the lockers in the boats, camping under cover in the woods, and dodging human contact after they discover that the new world order is to shoot first and ask no questions. Then something happens that interferes with this plan and changes their whole trajectory.
Up to this point, I was breathless with the need to keep reading. But then the book goes off into a lot of flashbacks into Jess’s teen years and, while interesting, it didn’t further the story at all. It also seemed strangely inappropriate that he would be sitting around reminiscing about this in the midst of the disconnect the two friends are experiencing from the present-day world.
I should also add that the book, as is usual with Heller’s writing, is a poetic and passionate ode to both nature and human emotion, which I always appreciate. I was enthralled by both the possibilities and the story-telling; I kept waiting for progress, for some kind of reveal, but we just kept circling around the same information—we don’t know what’s happening or who we can trust, we don’t know what to do about it, we need to go home. After the event that changes their focus, the story was still compelling until I turned a page after a particularly dramatic scene to discover that it was the last page. What?!
I honestly don’t know what Heller is doing. I do understand some of the statements he was attempting to make—the pondering over human nature and friendship, the disbelief and dismay at the violent divisions over things that seem small but accumulate into a reason for war, but…I want to know how it ends! This is the second of his books that has simply stopped in what I would consider mid-story with no resolution. It is a beautifully written story, but…what happens? Will there be a sequel? Or is that it? As someone similarly frustrated said on Goodreads, Gripping? yes. Satisfying? no.
I don’t know whether to say to read it anyway for what it does offer, or to be outraged by what has been omitted. It was too good to call it a waste of time, but…I’d love to know other reactions to its abrupt full stop.
A Heller of a book, until…
Peter Heller has written a couple of books that are favorites. The top one is (predictably) The Painter, and I loved The Dog Stars. I can also say that I tremendously enjoyed The River, The Guide, and Celine. So choosing to read his latest was predictable for me. It started strong, and parts of it remained strong, but…

Yeah, there’s that dot-dot-dot. Heller’s writing about nature in The Last Ranger was as beautiful and lyrical as ever. He creates a sense of awe and wonder that is contagious—even if it is his protagonist who is expressing these feelings, they gradually seep into your own consciousness as if you are experiencing that environment and the engendered response firsthand. I could never find fault with that aspect of his writing.
I also liked the characters he created for this book, and enjoyed absorbing knowledge from them about how the various people in and around Yellowstone spend their days. The protagonist, Ren, is a park ranger for whom the reward of living a solitary, blissed-out life in the midst of nature must be balanced by preventing parents from taking photos of their adorable three-year-old cozying up to a baby moose while its mama is ready to kill everyone within charging distance. He breaks up traffic jams caused by too many tourists trying to photograph something-or-other by the side of the road, he prevents the wildlife from being shot by “individualists” with no respect for the boundaries of the park or the laws of the land, and everything in between those extremes. His life is sort of predictable and sometimes irritating, but ever-changing and therefore not boring.
Ren’s best friend is Hilly, a biologist who finds herself up against both man and nature when advocating to protect the wolves of Yellowstone. There are a host of other characters, both local and transient, whose descriptions and actions are meaningful and/or entertaining even when the scene or description is fleeting. That is the power of Heller’s writing.
This time, however, the big lack is in the plotting and especially the resolution of the “mystery.” As the story develops, the focus centers on the brazen actions of a local poacher and then transitions towards the end to the discovery of a large semi-secret group of wealthy men who are at odds with the goals of a national park and are inciting rebellion amongst suggestible locals. But there are so many segues from these threads into a sort of “day in the life of” narrative about both Ren and Hilly, so many outtakes about fistfights between tourists, and ignorant sightseers putting themselves and others in jeopardy, and an unexpected and exceedingly awkward romance that the story line gets lost. And just when you think it’s going to resolve itself in the last 100 pages, you get some directional hints, you get a few minor questions answered, but everything else is simply left hanging.
I’d say there’s a sequel coming, but Heller hardly ever writes sequels, let alone initiates a series, and has not indicated one here. Given that, I feel like as readers we are owed the resolution to at least three plot threads, and no amount of euphonious language has made up for that in The Last Ranger. Disappointing.
My Year in Books 2025
I managed to read quite a few more books this year than last (95 to 2024’s 66), but I don’t know that I realized much advantage from doing so, beyond just clocking the reading time. My stats, according to Goodreads, were:
95 books
28,425 pages read
Average book length: 346 pages (longest book 908 pages!)

Although I discovered some enjoyable reads, there wasn’t one single book that truly bowled me over or made me immediately check out another book by that author or settle in to read a lengthy series. And most of the books I did like were the lightweight ones that I ended up reading as a sort of relief between the tougher titles. Here’s a list:
The Lost Ticket, by Freya Sampson
The Busybody Book Club, also by Freya Sampson
Vera Wong’s Guide to Snooping (On a Dead Man),
by Jesse Q. Sutanto
Finlay Donovan Digs Her Own Grave, by Elle Cosimano
My favorite science fiction book was The Road to Roswell, by Connie Willis.
My new discovery in YA fantasy, with an intriguing Egyptian-like setting, was His Face is the Sun, by Michelle Jabes Corpora. I look forward to the sequel(s).
I read a few books that were award-winners, or by well-known literary authors, or touted by other readers as amazing reads, but found most of them problematic in some way, and therefore didn’t feel wholeheartedly pleased to have read them. They were:
James, by Percival Everett
The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, by Taylor Jenkins Reid
Horse, by Geraldine Brooks
The Mare, by Mary Gaitskill
Horse Heaven, by Jane Smiley
Three Days in June, by Anne Tyler
Gentlemen and Players, by Joanne Harris
These have all been reviewed on this blog, so do a search for the title or the author if you want the specifics. None of them received a thumbs-down, but none of them lit up my imagination either.
The most disappointing part of the reading year was the letdown I felt each time I finished the next book in a bestselling series I had previously enjoyed. I read two books by Michael Connelly—The Waiting, and Nightshade—and had a “meh” reaction to both. The Grey Wolf, by Louise Penny, didn’t deliver the characteristic Gamache love, and was filled with tangents and extraneous story lines. Perhaps the least successful (for me, at least) was The Hallmarked Man, by “Robert Gabraith,” aka J. K. Rowling, which was so endlessly convoluted that I felt the need to reread it—but so long, wordy, and unsatisfying that I didn’t! I’m really hoping these authors rally in the new year, but it’s more of a “fingers crossed” than an actual expectation.
Honestly, my best and most sustained reading took place when I got fed up enough to revisit beloved books from decades past by such authors as Rumer Godden, Georgette Heyer, and Charlaine Harris.
Today I am starting on 2026, two days ahead of schedule! Onward, readers!





